March 30, 2019

Longing for acceptance


Oh Jerusalem, Jerusalem, how I have longed to gather your children together and you were not willing!  How much anguish there is in that simple statement, so much despair and love combined.  Jesus reaches out to a community that disrespects him, disregards his message and does not want to receive the gift of love and healing he offers them.  But even though he disagrees with them, he does not talk about violence towards them, he does not threaten them with destruction or punishment.  He speaks not from hate or fear or racism or religious intolerance of another faith, but from a sense of community.  These are his people, they are hurting and don’t know it, they are hungry and are not aware of it.
They don’t want to be a part of his group, they want to be stand-offish and aloof from what he is offering.  Some of them are political bullies and are quite happy with the power they have and will do anything to keep that power.  They will even manipulate and trick the government of the time into executing Jesus, an innocent man.
We talked last week about how all humans need control in their lives and the importance of having an awareness of our need for control so that we don’t use it in destructive ways, by micromanaging or dictating, but also that we don’t abdicate our responsibility to use control wisely and appropriately.  There are times when we need to control ourselves, or to provide appropriate guidance for others.  But most importantly, we need to become aware of the dynamics of control – when we are being too passive or when we are being too controlling.
Today’s scriptures speak to another human need, that of inclusion.  That too is a continuum.  There are folks who want to include everybody and want to be included by everybody.  There are also folks who don’t want to include anyone or be included by anyone. 
Groucho Marx once famously said, “I refuse to join any club who would have me as a member”.  He and others pride themselves in being self-sufficient, or above the need for human connection.  Maybe they’ve been burned by previous groups, and don’t want to risk being hurt or manipulated.  The other extreme is the person who wants to be included in every single group they hear of, and how they are so desperate to be accepted that they alienate the very people they are trying to impress.  They talk too much, or nod too much or agree too much.  The scariest book I ever read was called “That Hideous Strength”, about how people did anything to become part of the inner circle, the in group.  We see this in young people who join gangs with violent initiation rites, or froshing rituals in university groups.  Maybe we can even see that in people who are so desperate to be important and powerful that they commit atrocities like the one in New Zealand. Their lust to be accepted has been so strong that they commit acts of violence.
Being a lone wolf can be just as unhealthy.  I remember struggling to be accepted in elementary school where some of the kids would bully anyone different.  There are countless movies about the underdog who wins acceptance, or who realizes how powerless the bullies are, or gets revenge on them.  But an underdog can become arrogant as a way of dealing with the rejection they experience.  Groucho Marx’s quote might be fueled by his experience of being an outsider who became desirable only after he became famous.
Paul wanted a community that included people, that practiced hospitality, inclusion and acceptance the way he had been welcomed and included.  He had been eager to prove himself to the political powers in Jerusalem by persecuting the first followers of Christ. 
When he experienced his loss of sight on the road to Damascus, he was accepted into the homes of Christians who healed not just his eyes but his desperate longing to connect, to find approval, to feel sanctified and loved.  He wanted to share that same experience of healing and hospitality with everyone he met and travelled far and wide to do so.  But even he drew the line.  People who played politics for their own safety regardless of how that impacted others were labeled as enemies of the Cross.  People who were only interested in material things, filling their bellies, only focused on the here and now were worshiping their appetites, ‘Their God is their belly’.  They who wanted to be seen as glorious or special or admirable were labeled as shameful, and for those who pretended to be religious but were actually more interested in their own status as intellectuals were also seen as enemies of the cross.
We are called to be radically inclusive, to practice hospitality in the name of Jesus who ate with prostitutes, sinners, tax collectors, the poor and the disenfranchised.  We are called to be sensitive to the needs of other people to be included in our community in ways that work for them, not by smothering them with more love than they can handle, nor by ignoring those who look or act or dress differently that we do.  We are called to be aware of when our own needs for inclusion may become unhealthy and come at the expense of others.  We are called to love our neighbors and pray for our enemies for they too are human beings.  For God so loved the world, the Bible says, and we are to love the world, warts and all.  Some days this is easier said than done.  But I hope we can find the courage together to stand against hate, to challenge fear-mongering, to speak against the trend to polarize communities into ‘us’ versus ‘them’.  We need to speak out and challenge assumptions of entitlement or superiority when we hear them. 
Maybe if someone in Grafton, New South Wales had spoken up, 49 people in New Zealand would still be alive today.  I’ve never been to Grafton, but I’ve stayed in Brisbane which was nearby, and walked the streets of Christchurch.  The people there are decent, hard-working folks not that different from us.  But hatred grew in one young boy’s soul, for whatever reason, until he thought that he had a right to destroy others.  May we find ways to use our words and actions wherever we encounter those who hunger for inclusion in such destructive ways.  May we be a beacon of hope and courage to challenge the world like Jesus challenged Jerusalem.  May it be so for us all.

March 13, 2019

Say No to Control?


I’m getting ready for a contest in a few days and I’ve been talking to someone who has himself competed before in it.  He’s giving me lots of advice, including an invitation to think about what it would be like going to the world’s finals.  That seems way out of reach and an impossible dream, but it got me thinking about how life coaches will often invite people to imagine where they will be or what they will do in 2 or 5 or even 10 years.  To set ambitious goals and to strive every minute to keep that picture in mind.

Back in the 90’s I had lots of well-meaning advice from new age people who would tell me that visualizing was crucial to a happy life.  They quoted folks like Deepak Choprah or channellers like Ramtha, or positive thinkers like Shirley MacLean who were rediscovering teachings stretching back as far as Plato’s Cave and the beliefs of early Gnostics.

They painted a picture of life as the big dream.  If only we could be disciplined enough in our thinking, we could control the dream.  As Shirley MacLean said, it was all a learning experience, and if we felt called to learn from the experience of murdering someone, as an extreme example, then maybe murdering someone was actually the correct action for our maturing souls as we reincarnated through many lifetimes.  But disciplining our thinking to always envision positive outcomes would channel serendipity. Control your thoughts, control your feelings, keep everything happy and positive and the world will fall into place like an obedient child for the world is a daydream that you shape.

Not too different from Jesus being tempted in the desert.  In a way, he is being tempted with absolute control over all he sees.

Jesus, you can have so much control over your environment that you can even change hard rock into sustaining bread.  The world is a dream and you can tweak it to satisfy your every need.  You will never again face any physical suffering or hunger.  You control all.

Jesus said ‘no’.

Fine then, Jesus, you can control everyone you see, live in a palace, with control over politics, finances, countries, nations, foreign policy, immigrants, refugees, well, you could fix and impose your solutions on every human being.  You control everyone.

Jesus said ‘no’.

Okay, Jesus, try this on for size, you control God and the angels.  You become God yourself, ordering the angels to do your bidding, and you can order them to preserve your physical self at all costs no matter what ridiculous situations you might put yourself in.  You will never pay the price of having a mortal body, for you are God and can be rescued from the pains and agonies of a normal human life.  Even scripture says it will be so, and that must mean it’s okay if its in the Bible.

Jesus said ‘no’.

I think we all face similar temptations in our daily lives.  Parenting educators have talked about how all children have a need for a certain level of control in their lives.  Too much control going to the children and they become spoiled dictators, feel like they are entitled to do whatever they want whenever they want, and they do not develop any empathy for other people.  As parents they enforce strict rules and value obedience over relationship.  They crush their children’s initiatives and curiosity.  It becomes all about forcing the children to do what they are told and that the parent is the boss.  The parent has all the control.

Too little control in children’s lives can lead them into states of rebellion or depression.  Sometimes its easier for them to be passive and they will feel like their lives and interests won’t matter.  Sometimes they rebel and leave.  They grow up being used to the idea that their ideas and interests aren’t important in the world, that they can’t make a difference, and even that they deserve to be bullied or dominated.

They can become disastrous parents.  One lady I knew couldn’t understand why her teens were always rummaging around in her purse.  They were looking for the illegal drugs she had stored there so they could get high because they knew there would be no consequences from her.  Other people would let their children get drunk at parties because an eight-year-old staggering around was cute entertainment to them.  Alcoholics sometimes talk about how wonderful it was to finally get attention that way, and how it contributed to becoming an alcoholic.  No rules are as disastrous as too many rules.  No control is as bad as too much control.

Where are we on this spectrum?  Do we try to dominate conversations or decisions or do we spend all our time listening?  Do we think that everything is all our fault, or everything is everyone else’s fault?  Do we bounce back and forth between too much control and not enough, with wild swings between the two extremes, confusing everyone around us?

Jesus didn’t choose passive aggressive ways of controlling the world and humanity.  He did say yes to taking responsibility for his own choices.  Sometimes a little hunger is good for the soul.  It builds solidarity with the people who are always hungry.  We do not live by bread alone, but by reflecting on life and our relationship with God.

Jesus chose invitation instead of dictatorship.  Rather than bossing others, he listened with empathy, and reached out in love.  He would also call a spade a spade and call out bullying behavior when he saw it.

And he chose to live in relationship with God and the natural laws of the universe that he lived in.  How tempting that must have been to be invited to change the very foundation of the world.  He chose to be responsible for his choices, rather than expecting rescue at the last minute like a bad author throwing in a deus ex machina.

Let us take time this week to explore our own relationship with control, listen for the tempting voice that wants to lead us into all or nothing thinking and practise like Jesus saying no to the unhealthy temptations to control what is outside of us, and saying yes to the things that help us practise appropriate control through prayer, reflection, and scripture on this Lenten journey.